uggg

I think it's programmed into us, we have no choice but to think of the bad things that can happen when something significant is about to happen. I hate it and no matter how hard I try, the thought of this surgery is making me sick. I keep thinking back to my gall bladder surgery and how I still think that was a mistake, what if this one is a mistake to. I can't sleep or eat and all I want to do is cry. I don't want to have the surgery but in reality, I know I have no choice.